What have i become

She've Lost her Thrust for me.
Yea she fell out of love but she's afraid to let me know.
She tries to rekindle what we use to have but it is not working.
She doesn't want me any more. We use to be the idol of me. But now we can barely get along everyday is an awkward Moment. We're in the mist of getting back together but it simply isn't working .She tries to remember the good times we had & she does , but she knows she can never get those good times back. when she looks at me in the mirror she doesnt like what she see but she loves the vision the pictures from our past gives her . She have no clue on when she fell out of love with me but when ever it was she knows she regret what we had.

(This poem is about the old me. about me not liken who i became]

Defected Summer Lust (For my use to be 818]

Remember wen we were Happy.?
Those tymes uu made mee smile
That Summer Tyme Lust
Which Made mee Feel Lyke a Child
qot Happy wen uu Came Around
Tried my Hardest to Make uu Smile
At tymes wen uu were Down
That Lust That was Protected , By Reality Covered up, Different Personalities Neqlected, we Felt as if we were one
Fallinq inLove was Un Accepted . Summer Tyme Lust was wah we Call'd it.
Buh Then That Idea Was Defected . iyee Felt as if iyee needed uur Heart & iyee Knew iyee Deserved it. That Chase For uu was Tire'n. uu Chanqed , Showed mee uurself . That heart iyee tried so hard to win, Felt lyke it needed someone else .iyee realized iyee neva had uur trust. Therefore iyee qave up, suddenly uu Came upp. With Feelinq of Love. Sayinq uu was tryna Make it worcc. Which All seem'd lyke bull, Love wassnt in my Mind, buh Now uu treated mee wronq. Iyee Feel Obliqated to Make thinqs Riqht. Wen iyee didn't even do n.e thinq wronq. Iyee Put upp uur Fiqhts , as if iyee deserve it or if we belonqed . qottah keep us stronq.? Buh wah are we.? As stronq as friends can qed. See iyee know every body needs love & that's a fact that iyee'll neva forqed. Buh iyee jus don't feel the loveee am iyee wronq for not feelinq it.?
Somethinq so qreat. Turn out to be a Complicated piece of shidd. This is Not ment to be a anqer poem.j ust somethinq to make uu understand. uu went from beinq my Ms.Pretty Eyes :] to someone iyee can no lonqer stand.

Dear Leooooo!

Love.? To me Love is uu. The Feelinq of my Leqs shakinq in nerves wen ever iyee see uu.
the fact that my Leqs styll do that aftah all this tyme know'n uu is incredible.
The feelinq that iyee qedd wen iyee thincc about lettinq uu qo is unbearable.
The Feelinq of happiness wen ever uu said "I love u".
Love.? Is when you can sit on the steps at a bbq lookinq into each others eyes, me beinq completely Memorized , holdinq bacc every urqe inside , to allow uur lips to press aqainst mine.
The 1st tyme we held hands all period lonq, was the 1st moment iyee knew me & uu belonqed.
Excuse me while i take this look back in tyme.
The 1st tyme we kissed , iyee walked uu half waii home from a talent show , it took me forever to leave because iyee didnt want uu to leave me alone. uu beinq in a rush so that uur father woudnt beat uu at uur door step, we shared a kiss, remember this.? because i forsure will neva forqed. The 1st tyme uu confessed uur love to me, was January 2nd 2008, the daii of our 1months anniversary. i remeber that because those memories means the most to me.
see uur smile melts my heart , the words uu spoke brouqht my love to the top,
uur touch brinqs this rush that expires my sorrow, & uur kiss kept me lookinq forward to tomorrow. Now uur my leonardo & since on december 2 2008 uu qave me uur heart to borrow , i've decided iyee'm keepinq it. never forqed, uur the only one iyee can see myself with. my completion. i can wrap this poem up in two words, MY HEART. & even tho we're not 2qether uu styll hold that spot & immah wait until tyme stops until uu realize uu want.....a qeeeeee lyke spriizzy (Lmao iyee didnt know how to finish it buh uhmm hope yah lyked it] !

I killed her.
Tore out her heart without a Care
She gave her trust to me . Wanted me , Truly needed me , deeply Loved me
Her life was me. But i took that away. I showed her i didn't care about any thing she wanted . Needed ,or loved . I killed her . Because without me she claimed she could never Survive , her heart shattered in my guilt but yet i didn't feel guilty . I guess I'm a murderer . Am i sorry.? I don't know yet.

-Signed Mystery girl.

She Spoke.
As i listened .
She Smiled .
As i soaked into her beauty .
She Laughs & i loved the sound .
Her heart beats & mine replied .
I'd say she means everything , but that was already said,
I'd say i love her but that's Obvious.
To say i adore her may just be an understatement .
No longer can i stress the deep feelings i have for this girl
So every word i say towards her would Forever remain Silent

Captured

Lose Control of me
Release me from you captivity
Let me Free
i took a Dose of you now I'm a addicted to what i want us to be
Don't wanna imagine Reality
i see you there
Even tho you bad for Me
i need you so i can breathe
but you can change all this
by just releasing me

idk

Some times i refuse to believe this love is over
and i really cant deal with the fact that i don't have her
no longer can i stress the fact that i should be her lover , to me there is no other
and i know deep down inside she needs me too , but maybe shes afraid ,
afraid of making me her life, afraid of hurting me more by temptation , afraid of her heart being broken opposed to mine, afraid of maybe making the biggest mistake of her life ... don't know, i don't have not one clue , i just know i have to be with her until this life is over.

un answered questions

How many times can one cry before their eyes run out of tears?,
how many heart breaks can one face before the pieces breaks down to much & disappear .?,
how many days alone can one spend before they break down in fear .?
these are questions , that lingers in the mind , of a soul, that's been hurt so many times ,
that soul has questions& the answers cannot be defined

The feelinq hiqh gave me

i took a puff of the purple
& fell asleep in the sky
felt a release of the pain
for the moment i could fly
my eyes start to deny
the tears that builds up inside
i felt like life has no worries
there was no stress on my mind
every one was underneath me
while i sat on a cloud
i wasn't sleeping with god
but the angles screamed so loud
i was invading their space
not familiar in the face
felt like i didn't belong
so i puffed until i reached space
higher & higher i got
all of my fear starts to stop
i felt great cause the haze
completely erased my face

insainity defined

See they call mee Crazy
Jus because my Mindd issnt Riqht
Their stupid words in my head
Jus make mee wanna burst out & cry
The insecurities build
Cause all the happiness they've Killed
Separated Pain
Forms into my real
its imaqinable how
i imaqined my Lyfe
With the Sky in the qrown
Always dark with Noo liqht
Noo sense of wronq & noo riqhts
Jus a Sickness of the mind
They define sanity in such complicated words
Some of them i never heard
But If uu listened to a thinq i've said ; uu know i've defined their words

Black & qold

this inspired by a sonq call'd black & qold
by sam Sparro . i really liked the sonq & the meaninq it was qoinq for
so i touqht i'd remake it in my way in hopes you understand my meaninq im qoinq for

if the Space Ships Float in the Ocean
And the earth stoped rotatinq its motion
If the sky qrew a mouth & started talkinq
& our hearts qrew Leqs & started walkinq
i'll escape All the reasons why
Cause uu sent my mind on a motion
If uur not really here
Then the Reality really issnt Either
Now i'm Filled to the top with Fear
That this is all a bunch of matter
if uur not holdinq my heart
Then my mind jus starts to shatter
loosinq all ability to know
i looked up into the sky for uu
& all iyee saw was blacc & qold

Love me as i love you

Kiss me on my Lips & hypnotize my heart
Over power my soul with uur touch
Take over my emotions with uur Love
Tell mee that uu need mee with out sayinq words
Knock down the walls to uur heart & let mee in
Love me as ii lovee uu

Thouqhts

qirls put them Selves in Depress'n situation with the most fucc'd upp ppl ovah & ovah & then Complain about it lykee aftah thee 3rd tyme if it diidnt teach uu n.e thinq then maybe uu really deserve iiT! Daamn! you qirls qottah learn to realized repeatinq uur actions does not make them better the next time around . idk jus felt the need to saii that. iyee know uu quys aqree...

-SpriizzyRonni

The love of my life

Let mee introduce uu to
The love of my life
She has these cute pouty
Lips & her body is just riqht
She has this qlow'n Personality
That can turn a dark room briqht
This Sparkle in her eyes
That can illuminate the niqht

True Beauty defined
Success on her mind
Her soul completes mine

I'd Spoil her if i had chance
I mean i know this sound Corny but
She makes my heart dance
uu see

Wen i qet around her
I use our love for shelter
This may sound weird
But even tho i don't have her
I know deep down inside
Im the only one to match her

For life
She'll be the only one for mee
& mee.? I'll be the only one for her
The only one thatss riqht

Silent Whispers

You've Silently said everythinq i needed to
Know ; i was holdinq on to your surreal wen i've should of let qo ; your distance was burninq thru my soul ; your Silence whispered truth in my ear : which then build fear ; that uu would no Lonqer be near ; all the times i was with you ; i know you wanted to leave ; i was
Hopinq we would be ; but more every day you've made mee see ; That you didn't want to be ; & inside it was killinq me ; instead of breakinq you free ; i've kept you for my selfish needs ; all i ever wanted was you to love me un Conditionally ; & now that you've qone ; i reqret the times ; because even tho my Love was Real yours were just a lie

(ATTENTION]

Hey , Wassup. i've came up with the idea of adedication Post. basically its where i post the poems thati wrote based on a my friends . see people tell me alot about therelife , in hopes that i would listen (ehh sometimes i dont Lols] but other times i do more then listening. their stories hit me like a ray of sun & it inspires meso to show my love for sed friend (which ever one at the time ] so the next few poems ARE NOT about me . & i will tell you a little about the story as well & The dedication Poems will be titled DEDUCATION POEM if its not titled that then its not a dedication poem. (by the way if uu guys are reading this & you know me your probably shocked like you never knew dominique can write things that soo deep & not funn'e well theres more to mean then bringing laughter.] hehehe cause i'm coool like that & uu be Shnooooo'nnn Lols

DEDICATION POEM

Hmm this is one goes out to my Budddddyyy Ana C. .! on man
this story really was a hard one to write because even tho i understood everythinq
she said & really listen to her feelinqs its lyke i didnt so much aqree . but she said she loves this poem Lols.




She Loves hym without a Doubt
& to be without is a thouqht that neva Passes her mind
But yet she finds
This yearninq inside
To taste Temptation
Of another quy
When She's With hym
She sees beauty in his eyes
There's this touch of his that Completely Memorize
That's When She realize She's inLove
but there's daiis where she truly Cannot Staii
The waii He treats her at tymes are untamed
When he Makes her anqry ; wen he's un Considerate
Wen so much of hym she can't take
There's somethinq another quy Can Saii
To Make her cheat ; Over & Over Aqain
But then a thouqht of his feelinqs kills her within
She Loves hym ; buh She Enters Temptation

DEDICATION POEM

This one is man one of the stories that hit me the most
so much that i dont think i could of writting a goood poem about
so this is what i came up with... her name.? well im sure she doesnt mind me saying her name because i asked lols .. stephanie no last names thoo sorry .. but her story is just to overwhelm'n




Flashinq Liqhts Dime'd
the shine to her imperfection
She had Low self esteem
So she look'd for Comfort at the Bottom of the bottle
Search'n for Fame in the biq city Liqhts
Party'n at every club qave her the feelinq of riqht
Each & every niqht , she puts on a mask of confidence
Hope'n she'll Find those quys who'll make it all worth it
To qive her the attention she needs..doinq n.e & everythinq to qed her name call'd meanwhile insides she cries .hide untill the niqht
A constant fiqht. w. Reality & wat she wanna be
If heroine is where the Party is then She'll meet uu thea on the coner of self Destruction & Beauty Neqlection
just to make her feel better
but never does she think , if this would crash her futuer . she needs this
to make her smile . she truly needs this

DEDICATION POEM

This if for one of my BESTEST friends ever like i truly love this
girl . well to her i guess her body issnt good enough and some times
she jus cry when she thinks about it , shes doing a lot to change her body
(and mite i say its working ;D] well this is for uu Tiana ..iLu


She's Perfect
Buh she doesn't see that
Her body to her iss the true meaninq of Disqust'n
Wen she looks in the mirror she cries & screams look wah iyee've become ; from her imaqe she truly wants to run ; buh wah doesn't click to her is that she's truly beautiful
Her Hips is to this
Her leqs are to that
She breaks her self down
untill she burst into an attack
She works out hard coreOnly to iqnore
Her perfection
Neqlect'n her Personality
She's Ashamed
So She Complain
These thouqhts of neqitivity
Fills her brain
iyee'm not Skinny enouqh
Replays in ther mindWhich only defines
To true meaninq of lies
She's beautiful
She jus need to soak that insidee

DEDICATION POEM

awww this is one of the sadest story of all
this is out to the Sexiest Kid i know . Lols
Kervyan [Kiddswaqq. ):D he was forced to move lyke a thousand miles away
from home & he didnt find out he couldnt come back from "vacation" on morning when his mom
sent him his cloths & broke the news to him, hes crushed . he has to go to a new school , make new friends, hes even there without his family he loves so much. and he has to leave his girl that he Loved o.dee amount. this story really gets to me. *& i wrote this for you paapaaa.! ! :-*




Wea uu are & wea uu wanna be
Must seem lyke a lyfe tyme Awaii & to uu
iiTs probably lyke Lyfe won't qed n.e bettah
Buh Keep ur Smile ; Keep uur Pride & Most of all Keep uur Sanity
Jus Close uur Eyes & imaqine Those who Love uu are Riqht thea w. uu .
The Ones who stiicc by uur side no Matter how far awaii uu are & how Lonq uu'll be qone ; so Neva are uu Alone iin a Stranqe Place ; uur Jus qivinq them a new challenqe for uur love. So Don't thincc of thiiss As uu Loose'n uur friends & family . jus thiincc of iiT as uu Find'n out who uur real friends & family are & Lyfe would qed bettah b4 uu know iiT ;) Lemme Jus saii Iyee Lovee yah & uu'll neva have to put mee thru the test cause in Africa , Spain , or the north Pole iyee'm Only One Lonq distance call awaii Iloveuu

People like me

People like mee ;
They Try to hide from the world ;
See to them ; my mind is sicc ;
Apparently i brain wash you little boys & qirls ;
But im livinq for success & understandance ;
Then my mind starts to twurl ;
It breaks up these vision ; to make up
Lies to define ;the true meaninq of lyfe &
Elimination of Reality & that all happens in my mind
Crazy Riqht.? ;
See to mee there's no meaninq ; that'll truly
Make sense
so they defend their so call'd meaninq
Turn bull shyt to common sense
See my Brain is already fucc'd up
Iyee tell them Lyfe is rape
So they Take a Tape
Put it Over my mouth so iyee can't saii
the truth of abortion ;
Iyee doubt that uu can take
Homosexuality to uu is jus the mind of a state
& verbal abuse hurt the feelinqs;
While uu tell them to be stronq
Buh its mee who's tell'n them that iss lyfe
Which lyfe is wronq
Iyee try to qed that in their head
Because to mee Make believe is dead
Face'd w. Challeqnes
But they call mee crazy
This is wah lyfe did to mee.

Trapped behind my murder

Every tear i've cried
Represents every breath i took away from you
I can't believe i denied
Everything you deserve to do
Neva got the chance to Breathe
Neva got the chance to need
A hug from a mother
That mother could of been mee
Never got the chance to see
How beautiful this earth can truly be
Hiding you from existence
Neva gave you the opportunity to go the distance
Nows life has something missing
I cutt your wings b4 you can grow
I reached my hand inside & Knowingly ripped out your soul
& now i know ; i gave you the knowlagde of unknowing
I was young
Scared of showing
I was a murderer
& here's my Apologies
Its jus i wasn't capable of giving you
What you truly need
I was in my prime
But that's no reason to commit my crime
Shame inside
Builds these lies
As much as i denied
I came to realize
Your angel wings are still alive
In mee. Buried deep inside

The Promise Rinq

Once ii place this on your finger
all doubts would be released
Doesn't matter if we remain together
you'll always be the one For me
A promise that can never be Broken
I promise to love you forever
I promise to protect you from you fears
in all your stormy weather
A Promise of trust, to be faith full , Honesty & Love
A promise so powerful , the strength comes from above
i wear this ring with pride , you wear yours with Love
i can see it in yours eye, on this promise , your never giving up
Never can be misplaced , Never Can be hidden
i promise to defend you with everything with in .
To be your Lover, to be your best friend .
To be everything you ever needed , a shoulder to cry on
in this ring i promise
& you do to, the moment you put it on.
iiLoveuu xD

Rescue me

Rescue me .
Neva looked for help
But as you can see, help iis wat ii truly need
Inside & out thiis iis Kiill'n me
Stucc iinbetween wat ii am & wat ii wanna be
ii need to break free
it will not work on my own
So can you rescue me
Please
Teach me how to be a better person
Because the one ii've became iis simply not workinq
iim knowinqly hurtinq
My self, desertinq all my emotions
Throw uur rope of understandinq
Use uur strenqth of devotion
Tell me that uu can save me
Before ii commit self destruction .

Ready For Love

ii am ready for love
why are you runinq from me.?
Im ready for the hurt, & the happiness you brinq
I think i deserve the possibly
Im ready to qive uu my all
ii feel lyke iim chasinq uu & ii cant wait to fall
iim ready to be a prisoner , captured by uur name
Stucc iin uur walls. iim ready for love
But iit seems as iif uur not ready for me
As my eyes open up, ii start to truly see
Love iis wat iyee need
ii am ready for love . Dont you think iim worthy
All these years , iim finally prepared
Knowiinq iit'll briinq tears, happiness ,pain & fear
but iim prepared. Forqet the fact of lust, & temp affection
ii need True love.
The one thats Protectinq
The one that'll truly Last for ever
Meaninq forever we'll be toqether
Not 2day untill September
iim ready for iit all
Are you ready for me.?

(Untitled]

Wat Matters to uu , doesnt have a meaninq to me,
uur powerful thouqhts , Breeze thru my miind,as iif iit wasnt ment to be heard , The words uu speak are unclear & uur touch iis unfelt, as iif uur not even here , uur Leqacy leaves no mark & no foot prints while its buildinq uur nothinq, buh yet ii styll see uu as my all
ii still see uu as that beautiful qiirl that held my heart iin her hand, wishinq she carried it with her soft tender touch, ii styll see uu as the smile on my face & the joy iin my heart .my everythinq
Lyfe beiinq incomplete with out uu but lyfe meaninq nothinq with uu. uur beauty starts to fade iin my miind but remains iin my heart
uu mean absolutely nothiinq to me
But ii styll siit down & thiincc of uu.

Be my Inspiration

Be my inspiration
Be my reason to become a better me
All uu have to do iis siit there & be uu
See iyee qedd thrust for happiness from uur smile
Knowinq that iits briiqht enouqh to over shine ne star as briqht as the sun, uur eyes revealinq the true beauty buried deep iinto uur miind, uur Lips speak'n wRds thats causes me to melt iin my dreams of uu, uur touch that has my body weak w every finqer tip
Know iif iyee called uu beautiful that'll be sort of a understatement uur Beauty extends beyond the meaniinq.
So juss Please be my Inspiration
Be my reason to become a better me

Misunderstandinq.?

Theres so much ii can saii
But mean so Little
& ii can try more each & every daii
But iit wont make a diifference to uu
My words can be as beautiful as the flowers of may
But ii can also sound dumb, as if ii was the april's fool
But see thats jus apart of my charm
The power of beiinq misunderstood
As quiet as a whisper but can qo off lyke an alarm
Thinqs ii diidnt do that uu thouqht ii could
ii am not the person uu know
But yet the person uu see
As much of this personality ii've shown
uu can neva realize thats not all of me.
Do uu understand.?
Or am ii styll miissunderstood

Black ball Explosion

Black ball explosion
Red bursting in flame
The cold breeze through your veins
The hard hit of pain For a short quick moment
You loose the ability to maintain
Dies the meaning in your brain
Erasing all the sane
Drain , everything that you thought was right
That black ball explosion was truly the night ,She realize her mind was to much so she left it in the past, not as planed,her plan was ruined but deep inside she took that escape from her insanity just for a while , who knows if she's good.
Black ball explosion Shall never appear again
All though we'll all pretend
The Possibility stays opened
Red Bursting within
The cold breeze becomes thin
The Pain losses its hard hit
The effect of Black ball explosion

what if...?

If or when shes qone , will you miss her.?
would any tears drop down from uur eyes erasinq every bit of happiness for the moment .?
would you remember the lauqhter she tried so hard to brinq qedd'n riid of the sorrows she burried awaii for all those years. .? Would you pray to qod he'll have mercey on her soul.?
What would be the qreat thinqs uu remember about her.? was she beautiful to uu.?
did she brinq uu n.e type of joy.? did her lyfe mean n.e thinq .? did uu love her .?
these are all questions qoiinq thru ones mind as she trys to erase this mark she put on lyfe
she knows she over thincc'n thinqs buh she cant turn bacc now iits all set ..

WHAT IIF...?

what if..... but this is qood bye

When she walked throuqh the door
the pressure build up as she locked it
she realize no one took the time to say qoodbye when she qave hints
so she took that as a qo for it
she had a baq , a baq full of cop outs . a qun, a rope , some pills, and & letter .
the letter reads . . .

Dear , Who ever .
i wrote this letter over & over to try to explain to you
why ii felt the need to release my self . i didnt want to seem
like a drama queen but this life isnt working out for me . All these
years ii kept things bottled in its starting to mess up my mind
idk if im going crazy, or if its a feeling that'll pass but ii simply cant wait n.e lonqer to find out
as ii go through my days it doesnt seem like n.e one cares , ii've been a mistake you many people , ii've been an embarrassment to my family & so called friends , ii've been a complete failure to my parents , i dont think im loved , by n.e at all . Now that may not be a good enough reason but ii cant take this living with guilt n.e more .& the true reason iim doinq ii just cant saii. iit hurts to much to let uu know . but its more then one reason. this iis just not for me

Tell my Mommy ii love her & tell dabre the same
Tell my brothers & siistahs that ii truly loved them , no matter the case
Tell Darrell & tiana that ii saw them as the bestest friends a qurl can haver
Tell Shay & Andre that to me they we're the coolest ii ever known
Tell all the friends that remembered me with love that ii said thanks for thier friendship or w,e they called it
Tell HYM (my mom know who he is ] iif u ever find hym, that i cant live with hym iin my head

& tell Jackie & Sam that susprisingly ii love them the most & ii hope they could never ever ever forget me

what iif....jus what iif

Reunited with out the truth

ii walked into the Room
there she stands , with a drink in her hand
ii walked by , we locked eyes
the room suddenly got cold
ii can feel the wind hitting my bones
my finger tips start to sweat, sweat dripping from my neck
the blood froze in my veins ,caused my mind full pain
her eyes pierced my heart & for a quick min made it stop
the room started spinning & for a moment it blurred my vision
there was a voice in the back of my head & ii couldn't help but to listen
so ii stopped & said hi , stuttering at every word
ii was nervous ii cant deny, but then a reply is what ii heard
the fear it truly shows but its like shes looking through my soul, so ii think she knows
she said hello
she pulled me close
she hugged me tight ,then let me go
on lips she laid a kiss then she said "I'm glad your here" , & told me how much ii was missed
she told me ii left , didn't say good bye , didn't second guess, fed her mind with stress , she said she remembered me being her best
but yet I'm still standing there
quiet , full of fear
she offered me a set & said ii have a lot of things to clear
took a sip of her cup , my blood pressure raised up
she let me know everything ii did wrong
back when we got along
she said you look scared. but ii still ii couldnt find my speech
she said this is what you did to me , and you cant speak.?
now im thinking shes crazy, or maybe
na shes crazy . Its the 1st time ii've seen her iin years
& this iis all she has to say to me. so ii took a siip of her cup
holding back my emotions but then ii gave up . tears ruining down my eyes
it was the liquor that made me cry, to stop ii truly tried , all ii saiid was sorry & good bye .
knowing that iit was her who broke my heart, se didnt know ii Saw her that night , right after we had that fight , she went to his house , to let her pain out, she really gave him her all , as ii felt my heart fall ,ii stood there & watch all night , couldn't believe my eyes
ii said iit over ,then ii left , ii loved her but ii never second guess
she cheated . . . i needed
an escape . so ii left ..ii just left
we Reunited with out the truth

The man in the mirror

there , she stands in front of the mirror
as she analyze , she realize her reflection couldn't get any clearer
she was looking for a lie but the truth was nearer
she was never the one to look, she was considered a hearer

she saw him, blood shot skin
fire burning within , face full of sin
his horns needed a trim
he was rejected from God, but he still wore a grin
he was the true description of her reflection

inside the mirror he speaks
she listens while she start to freak
he tells her the amount of him she can be
she loves god , but the devil she began believes
he says

hahaha my child give up on him ,
you call , but hes not answering
he always judge you on his so called "sins"
hes on your outside but I'm your "god" within
follow me, trust me, your already going down my path
we'll match insecurities , with me you'll fit in

for a second she believed him, tears flowing down her eyes
ready to give up on the man who gave her life , yea he was right , god wasn't answering her calls
but she knew it was only because she wasn't giving god her all , she broke the mirror , getting rid of her reflection , got own her knees and truly apologize for everything in her wrong , she didn't hear a voice but shes giving it time now that her reflection of the devil broke, its now gods time . . .

TEARS

whats the true meaning of my tears ,
are they a reflection of my fears,
or effected by my piers ,
or a reaction from whats near .
are my tears a way to escape
are my tears something fake
are my tears something you can make
i wonder if any one can relate
my tears are what i forsake
see tears doesnt make sense to me
its somethings that appear that you dont want to be
their silent you cant hear but you can truly see
the reasons their over coming me

Mixed Poem

(This issnt directed to one person, i think this is the 1st time mixed poem, meaninq diifferent poems aboout different ppl all iin one.. Hmm i wonder if ne one knows which part is about them]

uur startinq to fade awaii,
more & more every daii
& theres no other words ii can saii
maybe iit was the tyme & place
maybe iit was the forgetful face
maybe ii couldnt trace
exactly wat you've became
ii started to forget your name
ii started to feel ashame
ii started to diie out uur flame
& uur the one to blame
uu separated uur self from me
uu kiilled what ii was tryna be
uu piick'ed up everthinq & began to leave
uu walked quickly & left no legacy
ii diidnt blame uu for disappearing
ii blame uu for the reason why the truth ii wasnt hearinq
ii diidnt blame uu for walkinq out
ii blame you for the waii uu came about
ii dont blame you for not talkinq to me
ii blame you or not tryinq to see
a reason to be
instead of copping out of what we
can truly truly truly be .....

take me to a better place

take me to a better place
Release me from my problems
harmlessly choke the life out of me
in the most painless way stop me from breathing
i don't want to experience life any more
its starting to become to complicated
don't kill me just release me
let me grow my wings & hopefully fly to heaven
i want the easy way out
i don't want to see her face
i don't want to remember his dreadful act
i don't want to realize the truth from what all the negative things the other kids always says
i don't want to disappoint my mother
i don't want to be the shame of my brothers
i don't want to be the annoyance of my sister
please just release me from the tears she brought
please release me form the fears he taught
please release me form the negativity I've fought
take me away from the pain . i don't wanna die , i just need to be in a better place

"POW"

Okay this poem is inspired by Alicia Key's spoken poem on def poetry ( viideo on this paqe]
iimmah title it title it the same 'POW" well lets see how it turns out

ii am a prisoner . trapped behind walls of disappointment
isolated from every one else by words unspoken
locked behind doors of paiin from hurtful judgment
tried to speak out , but the silence remain unbroken
see iif spoke what ii felt , yours eyes to me would change
you think im some kinda freak, a lost soul, deranged
ii feel there is nothing ii can saii to make your mind change
I'll probably make it worse , there iis no good ii can bring

I'm a prisoner , trapped behind my tears
stuck behind a wall, created by my fears
see ii tremble In my shorts when ever a man comes near
but the reason for that, you will just never hear
if ii told you, you'll cry or just feel bad
I'll be the reason for your sorrow , but with out me you will never have,
to look into a face of a girl with so much dreadful memories
you'll never know the reason that young girl stay sad


ii am a prisoner , lost iin a world of confusion
covered by a disguise made up by the fact of not knowing
the simple power of not caring
where ever ii end up , iis where ever ii plan on being
the fact that ii know ii'll never make iit far
iis why iim imprisoned locked behind bars ....

(Oh man iim on writer blocc. iyee dnt know where to finish thiis or even what to finish this with leave me some comments to help me out pleasee ]

Thiis iis fucc'n awesomeee

Thiis iis o.deee crazy once ii qedd a a job & save up about uhmmm couple 5 to 7 months paii ..oh best believe $priizzy cop'nn thiis . iits a fucc'n psp yoo buh uu can flip iit & qo on the net (YOUTUBEE xD) listen to music , take piicc's & quess wat.? iit has a freak'n web cam . if thats not awesomee to uu lames then iidk wat iis ii mean iit'll bee much bettah iif iit was bluee buh heii uu wiin somee uu lose somee :-P . iif ne body buy'n thiis iim deff comiinq ova for diinner jussss soo ii can play w ur Liittle gadget

WHAT A BHAAAD BITCH

Oooow. so ii thouqht ii'd write about Rihanna todaii
cause ii'vee notice theres alot of haters out there
thiis hea iis wifeee . Lols lykee uu quys cant front , Robyn Rihanna Fenty iis a bhaaaad biitch xD lykee comee on look at her & her voice is amazinq. Shes onlii lykee 20 & qot maad bucc's. sold hella copies of her album ii mean yeaaa she qot punch, slap, dip, & dap up by chris brown buh iit all qudd cause ii heard she qot her hyts iin too. ! & werd to my mommy's blue pair of socks wen ii catch Chris brown slipp'n around uniondale iimmah succ'ah punch hym 8-) (& run..realii realii fast] buh swerrrd . dont sleep on baybe qiirl . wen thiis whole chris brown thinq dies out shes qonna come bacc wit more hyts for uur stero & iimmah be the 1st one iin walmart to buy her album

-$priizzy

let me please uu..

Okaii well iyee wanted to see iif iyee culd write a Lil
"sexual" poem to see iif iit wuld actually be qud & seductive & shyt. well onlii one
waii to fiind out.........

passion, burning , yearning
for a simple touch
as you sit there , sexy, i start to get a rush
yes i love you, its time to, show me whats been covered up
let me run my fingers through your hair , as i softly kiss your neck
tell me where you want me , I'll be there no second guess
let my tongue travel, down you, until i reach between your thighs
and wen i get there, beware that i want you to open up wide
as you moaning , showing , your soft tender side
penetrating heart beat. from the pleasuring pain thats inside
i take my tongue out , kiss your yummy , hoping for a gigle
caress your beast, slip my finger in , as our tounge starts to mingle
this is my turn, baybe you've earn, the chance for me to please you .
your pussy thight'ns , as my voice is in, your ear whispering
body weak, from me holding, you as you lay and sleep
wanted to see every inch of you so i removed the sheets .......

Lmaoo iyee cant do this . .! Oh man some one teach me how to be freaky.! Lolss

ii LOVE her

She need to know she means every thinq to me
she need to know love iis to less of a word to explaiin how ii feel
she need to know a daii with out the simple soft sound of her voice can uncomplete my week
lettinq her know ii need her iisznt qud enouqh
ii need to fiind a way to show her
showiinq her ii cant liive w out her iisznt enouqh
there qotta be a way for her to believe me
maybe iif ii said her beauty takes my breath awaii
or every tyme ii see her iiT feels like love at 1st siite ova & ova aqaiin
when ii saii ii thank qod every niite that ii can be able to call uu baybe thats no Lie
& to qedd those ii love you's every niite b4 ii qo to bed puts a huqe smile on my face every tyme
uu see ii lauqh at every joke she makes not onlii because iits funn'ee, also because of joy, the joy to see her smile
yanoe ii may be younq but the feelinqs of uur youth are the ones that matter the most , the ones uur qonna remember for the rest of ur lyfe & iim qlad that ii can remember the love..the honest to qod love that ii feel for my heart, my soul , my everythinq & more.. ii loveeeeeee her .

to less of love

She saiid she wantsz iiT.
& ii can hear her body yearninq for ah simple touch.
But as much..
as ii wanna qiive iit tuh her. My lovee for her iisz holdiinq mee back.
iiF iits onee tymee iin my bed that'll make her smiile.
one kiiss on her liips that'll make her wanna stay.
Then one trip down her body ii wuld havee tuh take.
& noo matter how much ii wanna qo. ii can't.
ii respect her tuh much. But ii lovee her tuh less .
Tuh even try tuh resist affection .
Tuh less tuh forqet her naked body iisz amazinq & everii thiinq ii eva iimaqined iin my dream.
ii swear ii cant resist her voice screamiinq "qiive iiT me"Her bite'n her Lipsz
Her soft brown tummy
Her body layinq there weak & ready
iiSz waii tuh much for mee tuh qiive up
but ii thiink ii shuld love her more
Cause iif ii take her passion & disappear . ii dnt know iif ii culd liive wiith that

no title ... but this is a throw back poem

Her passion spoke for her
Her affection overwhelmed
Her body was callinq for one simple touch
iiT was tuh late before ii second quessed The consequences
My passion & her meet .Our soul found ah waii tuh connect
My Lovee & hersz Were nOw One.But then iiT rotten
Her kiiss broke my heartHer passion faded away
Her words cutt lykee thee sharp edqe Of ah sword
ii've nOw felt thee consequences whiCh ii neqlectedTuh realize . Somethiinq soo qreat
Departed iinto somethiinqq ii wana erase.Soo forevaa ii close my eyesz

Shes gone

ii was going in my old books of poems and ii found thiis
one ii wrote back iin 9th grade around the times ii started to write
iiT was one of my 1st poems so excse the wackness


Shes gone , disappeared,vanished ,
moved away by the simlpe fact that iis known as truth
me nor her can discover any distance from eacth other
maybe being to close drove us futher away
see for me she was the only one who would give me the time of day
the only one who ii truly ment something to . Yea we were young
and ii was confused of what kinda relationship was right for me
but ii still loved her , honest to god love her . ii diidnt know how to express
the passionate feelings for some one my whole family knew and treated as own
she was the only one who was deep enough to read my soul . now shes gone moved away
before ii got the chance to reveal my deep darkest feelings to the family i've hidden it from

Taken back

taken back , way back
beyond the point when life started to not matter
beyond the times when my days was empty of joy
beyond the many moments when my tears we're only cried within me
ii can see the joyful little girl, the one that always smiled because she had things to smile about,
the one who was to young to realize every thing that was being said to her was a lie, not knowing that was the best way that little girl can live .Her eyes wasn't open to reality
her ears was closed to every bad judgment , her mind was forced to think in a lie of a life
she was to young to realize she wasn't okay with that. now she grown and look where shes at
nothing is different but then again nothing is the same

Expression less Face.

For every tear that you Cry.
Every thought of knowing your life is a lie.
Every inch of pain in your eyes .
Every feeling of the disappointments inside.
there will always be a smile to cover up.
ii know some times the real you don't show.
ii know every day the ability to cover your emotions grow.

ii know the more you think of it the more it burns your soul.
but no matter what you have away to hide .
See the thought of being alone in this world.
the feeling of being a life less girl.
can set your emotions on a twirl.
your nothing different then every one else.
but as you look around you only find yourself.
so you smile you don't frown
be happy , never sad
cheer full but not mad
unexpected never glad
you have this ability to put on a show of happiness
when some times happy is not the case

so forever will you stick with a expression less face

NEED HELP

oh man . guys ii have a problem . ii've been trying to write another post for a while now but my mind has been on total BLOCK. ii honestly dont know what to write about . so please leave me some comments or hit me up on aim spriizzyxbaybe11 . dont be shy at all . ii feel like a confused mess right now . & all this lovley dovey poem iissssh isn't wrking any more. i love you guys for reading ..yall are soo cool lols

Plastic heart

LOVE can never burn
no matter how much fiire you put iit above,
the ashes can never fade awaii.
The sound of theiir heart beat could never be
Lowerd in your miind , no matter who iis there to
turn the volume down.
The paintinq of theiir beauty could never be erased
no matter what kiind of pencil, pen, or marker it was drawn with.
Your LOVE for them will forever liive,
even iif LOVE with them has already died.

Untitled

Her mouth speaks wERd`sz my heart cant Handel
Her eye`s tell a story that my soul cant read
Her feet walks a path thatt my miind cant follow
she`sz to much for me, she`sz waii to powerful
She`ll fiind a waii to escape my thouqht`sz
but untiil then ii`ll fiind a waii iinto her`sz
& Once iiM there ii`ll fiind ah waii to staii
makiinq her realize iim the onlii one that can
Truely maker happy , ii can be the one that'll have
her smillinq niite & daii
ii'll make iit kown that ii thiink shes beautiifull iinsiide
& Out & iiF ii cant read her story ,Or handel her wERd`sz
Or follow her path , iim wiilliinq to try & theres nothiinq
& no one whoo can hold me back from understandinq how
once ii qett iinto her miind the thouqht of love can never be erased
faded or covered up . :]

Somee Onee Asked mee iiF ii fear death. I thouqht real hard and camee up wiith any one who liived lyfe lyke ii have wuld saii ; no ii dnt fear death. Causee iiT feelSz As iiF ii've neva experiincee lyfe yEt. --qoute by meee :]

iiT maii seem lykee iiT doesn't makee siince but reAlii iiTSz Siimple iiF yu thiink about.

from friiendsx to moreee

LayiinG dOwn On dhaa phonee w my "HomeGurl"
nd dhaa stuff wee sayiinG ii thOuGht ii culd put iiT iiN Ah pOem ..
hmm well iima try my best nd tell mee how iiT comesz Out...



ii know yu been thru some thiinGsz
and ii wanna help
ii know dhaa paiin from dhaa lAst remaiinsz
and iiT feelsz lykee yu dnt want no one else
but ii promiise not to hurt you
and treat you wiith caree
And iiF yu let mee lOve you
no matter wat ii'll alwaysz bee dere
yur friiendshiip meansz alot
but iim readii to takee iit furthur
ii wanna qiive my all to you
ii wanna bee yur soliider
ii'll neva make yu cry
and to love yu ii can onlii try
but yur scared to let me love yu
cause of dhaa last onee on my miind
but no matter wat baybee ii culd qet ova iit
and love yu lykee yu shuld bee
iiF ii promiise too qiive my all to you
you have to makee dha samee promiise to mee....


( yo ii hopee yu readiinq thiisz..! nd yess ii realii wrotee all of these poemsz hehe yu diidnt beliive mee wen ii saiid ii wriite..but n.ee waii qurl ...let mee know wat yu thiink wen yu qet ah chancee to read thiisz iloveyu lykee no otherr yu fuckiinq CUNT lOl)

Broken

one look iinto thee past can send yur heart down thee draiin
And thee sound of thiier voiice can lead yur miind to such paiin
just thee thouGht of knowiinq yu had somethinq so qreat
and yu lost iit all iin onlii one daii
can makee ah person neva mentiion thee word love aqaiin
thee soundsz of thee tearsz flowiinq down onesz facee
thee struqqle iin onesz miind wen they try to erase
thee thouGht Of thiier love neva Loviinq dem back
can onlii makee ah person wanna forqet about all dhat
but your love for them iiSz not yet lOst
but some how usless iin a waii
cause thiier love for you wiill neva last another daii
these are all feeliinq ii feel for thee onee ii cant erasee
Lyfe wiith out herr iiSZ noo lonqer ii can takee
but iim as stronq as ah stonee soo qud byee iisz wat ii havee to saii

dead Feeliinqsz

ii hear a voiice iin my head
a soft siilent wiisper
telliinq mee all feeliinqsz are dead
but my heart beqqsz to diiffer
ii thiink ii shuld feel nothiinq
but for some odd reason ii doo
ii try to keep front'n
cause these feeliinqsz are new
ii try not to complacte lyfee by feeliinq such thiinqsz
soo deep down iinsiide ii try to erase
so for now all ii hear are these voiices iin my head
and for eva wiill ii thiink my feeliinqsz are dead ..

nOw ii beliive

One niiTe wEn ii wAs Asleep
ii hAd Ah dreAm ii culd Fly
but iiT seemed lyke iiT wAsnt mEh
sO ii Opend my eyes
nd ii jump frm dhA sky
but reAly runiinG Awaii
frm wAt wAs burried deep dOwn iinsiide
As ii Alomst tOuch dhA qrOwn
dhere wAs Ah hAnd hOldiinG mEh
Ah vOiice iiN my heAd
sAyiinG my chiild dnt wOrriiE
fOr Ah miinute ii diidnt beliive
iiNtiill dhAt strOnG hAnd liift mEh
uP frm dhA pAiin nd All dhA aqOny
hE sAiid iiTSz nt yur tyme tO qO just
just tyme fOr yu tO beliive
sO hE lEt mEh qO
but dhEn ii lAnded On my feet
disappeared iintO dhA niite
nd wOke up stress free
And dEn ii turned tO my siidE
nd dhere wAs Ah bible Ah siide Of mEh
Ah vOiice iiN my heAd sAyiinG All yu qOttA dO iiSz beliive
sO nOw ii beliive