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ii wAnted thiiSz tO bE dhA 1st thiinG ii
wrOte iiN 09 cAsue dAmn hOw evA am ii bOred....
*C ii tiired nd tiired tO wriite but my miind iiSz On blOcx
cAnt cOme up wiiff N.e nEw yeAr poems Or Ah blOq abOut iiT
sO ii deciided tO wriite abOut dhA Onlii thiinG On my miind sO ii hOpE yu enjOy ..



lyfe hAd nO meAniinG
dhA sky wAs nOthiinG but qrAy
my teArSz were AlwAySz leekiinG
dOwn Ah discOuraqEd fAcee
lOve wAs just Ah wErd
sOme thiinG ii'll nevA C
iintiill ii met dhA One
whO turned my dreAms tO reality
hEr fAce iiSz siimply elEganCe
hEr miind iiSz nOthiinG less Of iiNtelliiGent
hEr vOiice iiSz lyke musiic tO my eArSz
and ii cAnt hElp but LiistEn
shE briiGhtens up my dAii
ii need hEr lOve lyke ii nEEd Aiir
and ii knOw dhAt sOunds cliiChé
sOme dAiiSz ii siit stAriinG Out dhA wiindOw
just wAtchiinG dhA wOrld pAss mEh by
nd ii thiink dheres nOthiinG tO liive fOr
but iiT All mAke sence wEn ii lOok iintO hEr eyes
iiF ii mAy delcAre hEr bOddiE qiive mEh butterfliiEs
Anii tyme shEs neAr my heArt skiiPsz Ah beAt A miiLLiiOn tymees
iiTSz lyke She undA stAndSz mEh And everii thiinG iiM qOiinG thru
just One Of dhA mAny reAsOn ii dnt hesiitAtE tO sAii ii lOve yu
And ii hOpe shE feelSz dhA sAme Ah bueatiifull stArr tO my sky
iiSZ wAt shE'll remAiin ........(yea dhAt prOb sucked my miind iiSz kiindA blAnk lEt mEh knOw wAt yu thiink ) iily sAmm'E 12*2*08

diidnt wriite thiiSz pOem but dhA wErd hE Or shE wriiteSz (nt reAly sure iiF iiTSz Ah mAhn Or Ah qurl sO we'll speAk Of dem As ''iiT'') Anii wAii dhA wErdSz iiT wriitEs tAkes dhA wErdSz riite Out Of my heArt sO enjOy ii quess

iiF yu knEw , wAt lOve wAs
wOrdSz wuld nt stAb
liike dhA shArp edqe Of Ah swOrd
yur heArt wuld nt be upsiide dOwn
Eyes wuld nt cry riiverSz
drOwiinG mEh iintO cOnfusiiOn
trust wuld nt evapOrate
lyke dEw undA dhA burniinG sun
wAntiinG yu shuld nt be tOrture
cOmpliimentSz shuld nt Add qrOwth tO iiNsecuriitiiEs
shOotiinG stArSz Are nevA referrd As fAllen
ii lOve yu cAn nt fAll shOrt Of beiinG iiN
pAssiiOn wuld nevA cAuse pAiin
fOrevA wuld meAn tO dhA end
yu wuld nevA dOubt mEh
iiF yu knEw wAt lOve wAs
yEt ii Am willinG tO qO
All dhA wAii dhere wiiff yu
---dArien Cabiness

my made Lyfee

tO hiide my feeliinGSz iiSz All ii knOw
nd tO bAre diisApOiintment iiSz y ii dnt shOw
dhA feeliinGsz dhAtSz burried sO deeply iiN siide
iiT cAn Onlii send mEh On Ah emotiiOn rOllercOster riide
ii rAhter nt shOw everii One hOw ii feel
sO fOr ever ii'll ''pretend'' tO qEt riid Of dhA reAl
C iiSz iiT sO bAd tO wAnna be Appceted ? lOved iiN thiiSz lyfe
And nt neqlected ? sO ii lAuqh tO hiide teArsz cAuse ii dnt lyke lOokiiNG dOwn
ii just wAnna yell, screAm, nd shOut but wiiff All dhAt pAiin Onlii lAuqhter cOmes Out
but iiM nt here tO cOmplAiin just tO qEt yu tO understAnd
dhA mAiin reAson y ii dnt shOw feeliinGSz

sO dnt qEt mAdd iiF ii sAii iiT dOesnt mAtter
cAuse ii spent All my tyme buildiinG Ah qud lyfe
And becAuse Of yu nOw iiTSz All abOut tO shAttEr...

Love..?

lOve ?
whO Am ii tO sAii ii lOve sOme One
wEn ii dnt even knOw dhA meAniinG
nd tO thrOw arOund dhA wErd lOve
just mAkes mEh tO desiiviinG
but ii knOw dhA One iiM wiiff ii reAlly cAnt liive wiiff Out
nd tO briinG up hEr nAme mAkes dhA wErd ''lOve'' bust Out
nd dhA thOuGht Of liiviinG Ah life wiff Out hEr
briinG teArSz abOut
hEr fAce briinGs Ah smiile tO miine
thiinkiinG Of hEr As my sun shiine
Or sAyiinG ii wuld liive fOr Or fOr hEr ii wuld truly diiE
ii quess iidk wAt lOve iiSz but ii hAve Ah pretty qud iideA

dhA feeliinG dhAt briinGsz yu jOy wEn evA shE iiSz neAr
Or wEn evA shes qOne yu drOp dOwn tO teArSz maybe dhatsz dha defiitiion or maybe iiT iiSznt but who eva knowsz and maybe iitsz love to let thiisz feeliinq qrow

just sOme thOuGHTSz Of miine ii quess abOut pretendiinG ( iiF yu knOw mEh yu knOw ii cAnt spell wOrth Ah shytt sO iiF ii hAve Ah few miiSs spelled wrdSz pleAse fOr qiive mEh)

nd iiF thiiSZ dOesnt mAke Anii sence tO yu dEn sry but iiTsz just dhA wAii ii feel ii quess

ii nevA thOuGht pertendiinG wAs such Ah bAdd thiinG ..iiSz pretendiinG sO wrOnG Wen iiT spAres dhA FeeliiNGs Of dhA Ones yu lOve, Or just spAriinG dhA embrAssment dhAt judqmentAl ppl wuld briinG.ii quess sOme ppl wuld sAii "why pertend ,iiTsz yur lyfe yu shuldnt cAre wAt ppl sAii At dhA end Of dhA dAii yu'll be Onlii pleAsiinG yur self '' blAh blAh blAh.but iiF iiTsz yur lyfe shuldnt yu be treAted iiN iiT As yu feel yu wAnt tO be ? Or iiN Ah wAii dhAtsz riite fOr yu ? nd mAybe dhA wAii yu Are, everii One wOnt Aceppt sO shuldnt yu mAke sOme chAnqes tO chAnqe thiiEr perspectiive Of yu ? ..nO yur nt dOiinG iiT tO pleAse thEm just iiN sOme tErms pleAsiinG yur sElf , iiTsz yur lyfe yu liive iiT hOw yu wAnt tO nd iiF yu wAnt ppl tO lyke yu , bettAh yEt Appcet yu, shuldnt yu ''pretend''? wEll ii rAther nt cAll iiT pretendiinG JUST mAkiinG chAnqiinqSz wEll ii quess ii'll jus siiqn Off sAyiinG iiTSz yur lyfe liive iiT hOw eva yu wAnt tO nd dO wAt evA meAnsz nessary tO qEt yur perfect lyfe

AlOnee =(

shE hAs thOuGhtSz but nO One heArSz , shE hAs teArSz but by neqtiive thOuGhtSz qEt wAshed AwAii. hEr pAiin iiSz brOuGht by heArtlEss ppl ..whOm tO dEm shEs jUSt Ah sOul iiNviisAvble .shE wAlks iiN dhA sAnd but sheAdSz nO fOot priintSz.. shE FeelSz AlOne iiN thiiSz wOrld . dhereSz Onlii judqmentAl ppl , her lyfe iiSz full Of hAtred , judqmentsz , Liiesz , nd teArSz nd clOser tO Ah breAk dOwn dhEn evA shE fEElSz neAr .ii quess thiiSz iiSz hOw shE liivEsz iintiill hEr qOd cAllSz hEr hOmee nd shE knOwSz wEn hE dO her bOneSz remAiin alOnee

discreet lOve

yea iF my hAnd wriitiinG iiSz Ah Liittle tOo much yu just qOnna hAve tO excuse mEh fOr dhAt
...

reAdy tO C wAtSz qOes frm here, my miind iiSz reAdy but my heArt hAs feAr, my bOdy just shiiverSz wEn yu cOme neAr , but my sOul iiSz burniinG cAuse yur tiimptAtiiOn ii heAr. dhA pAssiOn iiSz strOnG cAuse Of dhA wErdSz yu sAii sO suductiive .nd iiF yu keep tAlkiinG lyke dhAt ii just miite qiivE iiN .Ah lOve sO decreet iiSz All iiTsz been but yur wErdSz nd thOuGhtSz sOundSz lyke yur miind iiSz chAnqiinG .Ah secret Of OurSz cAn nO lOnqEr be kept but iiF iiTsz On dhA d/L hAve Our lOve been fOund yEt ? Aree wE Ah shAmed eAch OthEr Or just wAt ppl sAii ? Or Aree wE just tO yunq tO be iin lOve Anii wAii tO shy tO express Our emotiOnASz but ii cAnt hElp iiT yur lOve iiSz my pOstiiOn . ii quess wAt iiM trynA sAii iiSz iiDk iiF ii shuld shOw iiT dnt knOw wAt ii culd lOose Or qAiin sO Ah discreet lOve iiSz All iiT remAiin..!

siiqned Off SpriiZzy *